A Bit About Me (One)

I have had blogs before in various places in cyberspace, but I am starting a new one for a good reason.  2 years ago I had to give up my job due to ill health. I have Fibromyalgia, a chronic pain condition that effects all the muscles, causing severe cramps and muscle weakness. During a flare up of this I managed to slip a disc in my spine by leaning into my car. After about 8 months of getting used to my new situation and coming to terms with it all, my disc slipped again, only worse than before leading to 4 months of being bed bound and unable to do even the simplest of things for myself. A nerve was trapped, and I had to have surgery to free it and sort the disc out. The surgery happened with 48 hours notice a mere 3 weeks after we moved to an adapted house.

9 months later, I am emerging from the morphine fog, the pain and recovering my mobility and strength. Spring is finally here, the days are lengthening again, and I find myself in a kind of weird situation.  I feel like a stranger in my own life. The house still needs unpacking and sorting out. I have no flooring, and the decor is someone else’s, and there are many boxes still to be sorted. It doesn’t feel like home to me.

I have no job, and will need to find one soon; I have gained weight due to the meds and the inactivity, and the last 12 months especially have aged me more than the previous 10 years did. I am not sure I recognise myself in the mirror anymore.

I am in a new area that is still largely unexplored and unfamiliar, although it is on the edge of the city I call home but I find myself isolated, lonely and wondering at times “what the hell happened?”

But now………..well, now I feel like I can begin to reclaim my life – for me. I am also aware of an opportunity here. Possibly a bigger opportunity than any I have ever had – depending on your perspective.  But it’s scary, and my illness hasn’t gone away – I have good days and bad days, and so I expect it to be 2 steps forward, one step back, with probably long pauses when no steps are taken at all.

So – here I am, stepping out of the fog, stepping back into the world, and I have decided to blog about it. Partly to track my progress, partly as an affirmation that what I am doing is somewhat life changing, and partly because I expect there are others out there who have been through similar, and maybe we can find each other and help each other along.

So,  a little more about me. I am short and round, I have 2 daughters that I love dearly and am good friends with, 2 cats that I adore and a new kitten, 2 guinea pigs who are getting a bit elderly, and we have a ‘new’ house that is filled with chaos and clutter and disorganisation. 

I am told I am slightly eccentric, and if anyone will wear purple when they are an old lady, it will be me – probably because black and purple are my favourite colours for clothing anyway.

I love pretty things – jewellery, handbags (tho not shoes, as I find shoe shopping and underwear shopping to be a torturous ordeal) but I am also very much a ‘no frills’ kind of girl. I knit and crochet and have an enormous stash of wool, as well as numerous boxes of beads and buttons that I have plans for 🙂

I love music, and reading and banana yoghurt, and chocolate. I don’t drink but I do smoke. I can cook but I don’t enjoy it very much. I quite enjoy cleaning, but I despise putting things away and tidying up. I have a few favourite shows on TV, and I adore the internet.

I am spiritual, but not religious, and class myself as Pagan, and I believe in ghosts.

And so the blogging begins……….

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19 Responses to A Bit About Me (One)

  1. Paul Ducksbury says:

    Hello,

    wondered where you’d gone. Have you given up with LJ, I more or less have and was about to delete my account.

    Hope little Mitch is ok.

    Paul

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  2. oldmamoon says:

    Hi Paul,
    Yep, here I am. I still read LJ but as life has changed so much, I thought it time for a fresh start, so to speak.
    Mitch is fine, thanks. Growing rapidly and still being kept in line by the others, altho he does push his luck somewhat – LOL
    xx

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  3. Christina says:

    YAY! You and I are a lot alike! I am a crafter, chronic pain/fibro/autoimmune sufferer, mother, and blogger. I have Pagan beliefs, as I am Wiccan. I can’t wait to get to know you better. I think we could be great friends!<3

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  4. culviculvi says:

    thanks for checking out my blog! don’t know how we found each other, but i, too, am a crafter, sewist, chronic pain/fibro/autoimmune sufferer, mother and blogger. but i’m allergic to cats. lol
    looking forward to poking around your page. hope you are having a low-pain day!
    chiara

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  5. sandydunne says:

    Wow, what a story! You are impressive; I’m full of admiration for your guts and forbearance, and I really must stop my moaning about minor discomforts. Will enjoy following your stories if that’s alright.

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  6. Moongazer says:

    Thank you for the lovely compliment! This page was written a good while ago now and I had picked myself up and then 2014 happened. My blog really came into it’s own from April onwards. Last year was the worst! And I’m kinda back at square one again – and not feeling terribly impressive at the moment lol. But for another journey you’ve joined me at a good time 🙂
    Nice to meet you xx

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  8. emmakwall says:

    Hello! You liked one of my comments on an Opinionated Man’s post and I saw your tagline of chaos, cats and chronic pain and was very intrigued.

    You sound so interesting and nice! I’m sorry for what you’ve been though but I guess that was written a little while ago and I hope things are more level now. Anyway, I’m going off to read more! 🙂

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    • Moongazer says:

      Hiya 🙂
      Thank you 🙂 I shall come and investigate your blog, as it sounds interesting too. I only like comments on other peoples blogs if I really agree with what they say: or if it makes me giggle as a way of saying thanks, so its more than likely I’ll enjoy your blog 🙂

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  9. Love your blog! I’ve nominated you for the ENCOURAGING THUNDER Award. https://sexyachymoody.wordpress.com/2015/05/08/encouraging-thunder/

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  10. Shrewed Up says:

    Dear Moongazer: THANK YOU for your wonderful advice today on my blog. I’m taking the Omega 3 and it has already started to improve my withdrawal symptoms. I cannot express my gratitude enough. I am truly blessed to have a fellow blogger like you care enough about others to help. Again, THANK YOU.

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