At least I am no longer Ranty Bint 🙂 And today has been much better in that things have gone well. I even managed to get a few chores done. Nothing spectacular, like hoovering, but still.
But I have been so weepy Don’t worry, it’s not in a sad way – I actually feel pretty good. But…..oh dammit, there’s no other way to explain it than by giving you examples.
It started this morning, when I heard Bastard Man (the neighbour who shot an air rifle at my cat when we first moved in) talking to a couple of chaps outside my house. There is a hump in the pavement caused by a root from the sycamore tree, and they are planning to fix it. BY CUTTING THE WHOLE TREE DOWN!!! Just the thought of that lovely tree, that is just doing what trees do, minding it’s own business, being destroyed for the sake of a bit of wonky paving………….well, it set me off 😥
I did phone the housing association and told them what I thought. They will get back to me to discuss it. Dammit, though. I use a wheelchair or a walking stick and the humpy pavement right outside my house doesnt cause me any problems, so the other neighbours should be able to cope. Or they fix it some other way!
But that set the tone for the day, really.
I have been watching Poldark – the new BBC production of it, starring the man I most want to snog, Aidan Turner. I watched the last episode today on TiVo, and his baby died. I cried. Not because the season was ending, but because this little fictional baby died, and her fictional mum was unconscious when it happened. My heart strings were severely tugged!!
Then I was discussing plans for the living room with Son-in-law-to-be (I must find an easier-to-type way of referring to him LOL) and the relocation of my desk and pc cropped up. I still haven’t been able to even turn it on yet after last year, let alone use it. It’s totally illogical. Makes me feel as barmy as a barnacle that I can’t. I felt the tears welling up ffs!!
See – I really am a bit bonkers on the quiet LOL
Then, I read this story http://www.nydailynews.com/news/national/dachshund-adopts-paralyzed-cat-dumped-article-1.1583510 posted by http://weartearandcare.com/ (my hidey linkey thingy STILL isn’t working), and watched the video and felt myself welling up.
Go watch it – it is seriously heart warming!
And then, to finish it all off, the lovely Donna from Homemade Naturally, here http://dadojodest.com/ had posted a song about dementia. Well…..I really blubbed at that.
So what the hell is wrong with me ??
Is it because my dad’s birthday is coming up, and I miss him? Am I just hormonal ? Is this the beginning of the dreaded (cue deep booming dramatic voice) “Change. Of. Life”…or menopause to those who aren’t in a booming voice kind of mood.
What is it with me and the crying today??
Apart from all that, I have been buoyant and my pain levels are manageable.
Try again tomorrow, shall we? LOL