Memories don’t nourish. And you still have to wake up each morning knowing that after 16 months of believing the both of you had finally found your forever person in each other…..
…..you were still as easy to discard as ash flicked to the wind.
….. the love YOU felt
…. and the pain of loss you feel
Does not so easily go away.
Despite what some have…erm, suggested, that doesnt mean I am not “moving on”. Because, let’s face it – there is no miracle time machine, and the water that has been flowing under the bridge the last 3 months is full of crap, produced by shit, and it stinks to high heaven!!!
But that doesnt stop me grieving what was. I wish it did.
BTW – I had a look at one of those little booklet things that comes through the door. And yes, there are bloody loads of ‘groups’ and events to go to – if you are over 50!!! which I am not!!!!
It’s a very strange thing indeed, that is, once again being excluded for being too young. Once upon a time I looked older than my years. Now I am told time has been kind to me, I cant even sneak into the over 50’s clubs for a cup of tea and a chinwag. It seems wholly unfair, somehow. *sniffle* PMSL
And then there is the issue of trust…….hmmmmm…..well, that’s a wholle different ball game, isnt it. A whole different blog post too, probably.
So, moving on – it’s easy for some to say, easier still for others to do. But in reality………yeah. I’ll just go with my own flow, thanks. I did my best. And only twice did I speak out of spite, and then it was private.
But if you are reading this, and condemning me, then just for a minute – put yourself in my shoes. Just for a minute, imagine how this feels.
I am glad for you if you have never been hurt this way. I really am. I would not wish this on anyone.
I’ve just noted myself how I am writing more in the past tense, and that’s how it feels. It’s passed.
So take your condemnation away please.
My mistake was that I believed. Dont do the same.